What I don't understand...

Time is the school in which we learn, Time is the fire in which we burn. - Delmore Schwartz.

What I really don't understand is, the way life moves on and on, day in and day out, especially when I have no plans for a day. I might have realized the importance of planning a schedule for the day-about-to-begin in a couple of hours, after I started to live in this foreign land. No one around me ever cares what I am and why I am here or for that matter, anything about my existence in this world. How wrong it is to have got used to living like a baby that is spoon-fed every moment by someone or the other like a mother or a life partner, and to have acquainted a place all of a sudden where you get to hear a dog barking maybe once in a month. There must be a serious purpose behind the God's creation of silence on earth. Something like Einstein's Relativity, silence is a relative term, I guess. When there is no space for any more thoughts in your mind as it is completely occupied, what mind genuinely needs is, perhaps, silence. But, if it is like the so called 'idle brain', then the biggest rivalry seems as if it never perishes between a mind and silence.

All that I am talking here may convince the reader that I am usually victorious in handling time when I have many things to do and think about. That is rather a wilder task in my view. Again, talking about the relativity of this fourth dimension, time; one can say, if one is responsible to answer someone about the work assigned, that is exactly when time comes into picture like a needle pricking you at regular intervals of time. Probably, this is the reason that someone said, be the whole and soul boss of your own self. Because, if you have a boss other than yourself, then time is the only God who can save you. Anyways, I wanted to start, you can say, to practice my writing skills with my biggest incapability which I am failing indisputably to get rid of. One can comment on this if one has any ideas for me to achieve this goal of getting rid of being unable to manage time.